AIESEC LC UTM LLDS '12

I'm an AIESECer since my 2nd year, 2nd semester of my university life. During that time, i'm an OGXer. However, i'm just an AIESECer that fooling around without a clear direction and also goal. I can say that i didn't learn anything from my OGX experience. This make me feel that actually AIESEC is out of my expectation in term of efficiency and also learning. I really cannot get what i want in AIESEC. 

Somehow, i insist to stay in AIESEC to give myself another try. This year, i give myself a try to attend the LLDS. I was an OC of LLDS this year. Although we have a lot if conflict in inside the OC team but we still manage to finish LLDS nicely. This was a very nice experience for myself. From the Oc experience, i Learnt that the AEE (After Event Evaluation) which i normally known as Post Mortem. It is effective as we used keep, throw add method and also 360 degree feedback to everyone to let them know that actually what is our weaknesses and also strength. from there, we can improve ourselves.

From the 3 days conference, i know myself better. i have done alot of self reflection during the 3 days. I realized that for me to become an awesome leader i still have much things to learn especially enrich my knowledge by read more. 

For the first day, i actually realized that most of the things i have learn but i never apply in my life. sobs... the memorable one is the personality test which let me know more abt myself. Thanks to Jack for his sharing. As for the team task(teamwork), i realized that i cannot work in the team. i'm more focus on myself which means i did not feel like contribute once i feel i cannot fit in. Besides, i also i lack of ideas i didn't read much to improve myself. other than thus, i think a proper self evaluation is needed for me to improve myself. Last but not least, i have laziness and the sense of scared inside me that stop me from forward. 

For the second day,  The LC simulation let me knew more abt AIESEC operation. How they work as a successful Non-Profit Organization. From here, i realized that i am a typical YELLOW. I didn't plan well before i go for one thing and wasted alot of resources. However, due to strong of sense of responsibility i will will never give up until i reach what  want to reach. But i know that what causes the non organized in doing things is that i'm over confidence in myself. I thought i knew it but i actually i don't no. This was the most memorable for the day. Other than this, i learn how to give feedback and also receive feedback without any hard feeling. The Sandwich method, ask tell ask method and also 360 degree feedback (thanks to Sharon). This actually help me and others to improve. 

For the Third day, It's more relax. Shen Chieh let me know that the sense of urgency help to unleash our potential which means that A CRISIS causing us to CHANGE but in fact we need to change before the crisis take place. The touchest part for the whole day is actually Joanne's sharing about her journey in AIESEC, how AIESEC make a change to her and her determination in AIESEC.

From here, i realized that i need a BIG CHANGE!

AWESOME!!